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All I Want Is a Keyring

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I'm lying on my bed in a grey concert t-shirt, ripped denim shorts (with an extremely unfortunate hole in the rear...). Barefoot with chipped nail polish. I am the definition of flawless, no? *inset sarcasm here* I'm looking around the room with its mandarin glow and dark wooden wicker cabinets. The fridge is gurgling away, there's a pigeon cooing right outside my window and the sound of a dog barking somewhere in the distance. It's such a tranquil place and I can't believe it's all coming to an end so quickly.  Two months has flown by. I took a three month lease on this apartment when I arrived in Cape Town, South Africa. Somehow, I landed a job at one of the best art galleries in the world. Things all seemed to fall right into place for me when I first got here. I gave myself the time limit of three months to make things work. If they didn't, I had no choice but to return to the yachts and earn some Euros. My mission was simple: Find a good job, a flat... ...

November 9 by Colleen Hoover | Book Review

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4/5 Stars for November 9! A love story about a writer and his unexpected muse... it sounds cliche, no? Believe me when I say this book is far from that!!! Our main character is Fallon, a once up and coming actress who got 30% of her body burnt in a fire, instantly bringing her acting career to an end.  On the anniversary of the day of the fire, she meets Ben, an aspiring writer. Their spark is instant and undeniable but their time together is short as she is just about to move across the country to New York to try and pursue acting again.  Their crazy whirlwind romance ends with them promising to meet up every year on the day they met to see where their lives are - and this inspires Ben's debut novel. As Fallon begins to read snippets of the book she starts to wonder if Ben is being honest about how he knows her and if some of the horrific parts of his novel are fabricated or the heart-crushing truth......  This book is sectioned off in the years that follow, based on the...

The After Effects of a Break-Up

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Right... I feel like it is time to write again. Write something. Write anything. I guess a life update would be a great start... don't expect this writing to be profound and groundbreaking. This is just me placing my fingertips on the keyboard and letting the words spill out of me. This is me listening to the pitter patter of the keys as my hands glide across the board effortlessly. It is like second-nature to me... and it has been so long since I have just typed... just let it out. So here goes....  Besides my last two posts which are both book reviews (nothing personal to see there...), the last 'personal' post I wrote on here was on the 25th January. I was still in Mallorca, Spain.  I was battling with a lot of demons in my mind.  I weighed a mere 36kg because of stress and heartbreak.  I was in the darkest place I have ever been.  On the 24th January something inside of me snapped. It was like I had finally woken up and realized I deserved more. I had heard ...

Holy Cow: A Modern Day Dairy Tale by David Duchovny | Book Review

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5/5 stars!!! This is a eminently comical book filled with wise-cracks and wit but has surprisingly and effortlessly delivered some really important messages about acceptance, culture, mutual respect and understanding.  It is a reminder that animals are not the mindless beasts purely there to serve and feed us as many of us in the human race seem to think they are.  One thing that our MC, Elsie the cow, says in this book really stood out to me. She said something along the lines of: humans shouldn't have the privilege of being called an animal because we don't deserve it. She says that she thanks every blade of grass when she's grazing in the field.  That's respect for nature at its finest and it is how many of us forget to be. While getting that point across, Duchovny doesn't do it in a preachy way. It's lighthearted and it's FUNNY.  It's a completely crazy (yet oh so very true!) globe-trotting story that requires you to leave your sense of reality behin...

Big Little Lies by Liane Moriarty | Book Review

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Pure, sinister, dark and riveting excellence!  This is a book about a bunch of kindergarden mothers and the scandal in their lives!  What I had originally thought was a thriller turned out to be so much more! While this book is a murder mystery it isn't 'scary; besides the scariness of reality. Each character has instability and a situation in their life that could happen to any one of us... the characters were so enjoyable and easy to relate to - they seemed like almost real people to me.  This is a book that really keeps you guessing! Going into this book we know that someone has been murdered but we have no idea who the victim is nor do we know who the murderer is. This book was fascinating, the plot and format is so creatively done. I loved the interviews with the sideline characters at the beginning and ends of most of the chapters, discussing the events leading up to the incident.  The writing was absolutely fantastic and so descriptive. The story was incredibl...

Day #9: 30 Day Writing Challenge

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Post some words of wisdom that speak to you: This could not have come at a better time..... last night when I was having yet another night alone (as always these days) I started watching some videos on youtube about how to walk away from toxic relationships. The entire video was extremely insightful and helpful but something stood out more-so than everything else combined: "If you're falling asleep next to somebody every night but yet you still feel alone, why not rather be alone?" That one question changed my perspective on everything.  The same woman also spoke about how she found a journal her brother had written in the day before he died and the entry was so sad. He had been miserable in life.  My own journal for literally every day of 2017 so far is filled with 25 pages of sadness, anger, pain and confusion. I am miserable too..... and I realised last night that if I die, I don't want to nothing but a morbid journal to remember me by. I don't want to be sad. ...

Day #8: 30 Day Writing Challenge

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Share something you struggle with: I struggle with all of my insecurities right now.  I struggle to find peace in my mind and happiness in my soul.  It's gone.  I struggle to find myself in this dark place I have wound up in.  I have lost myself.  The confident, secure, happy, independent woman I was a year ago has vanished.  I want me back - but I can't find my way.  I don't know whether to go left or right.  I'm standing at the turning point getting whiplash from looking at two such opposite directions. Which one do I choose?  I can't keep standing at the T-junction.  I am embarrassing myself.  I'm making a fool of myself.  I'm holding up the traffic.  I'm so torn.  So lost.  I don't think I have ever been so broken.